If you're a theater nerd like me, I'm sure that you have gone into a show with a part already picked out. I can remember when I was in high school and would be auditioning for a show, they would ask which part I preferred. That didn't mean that I would get that part, but they would know which part I felt like I could pull off.
When my church decided that we were going to start up our judgment play again, I had a couple parts picked out in my head. There were a few different parts that I knew I would like, so I went over what I could say for each part in my mind. For our first practice, parts were being assigned and I couldn't wait to hear what part I would have. When I was asked to play Jesus, I was very hesitant but agreed to do it.
The Great Judgment is a show that my church had been doing for years, but we put it on hold for a long time. It's a show that tries to show what will take place once someone dies or the rapture takes place and they face judgment. I can remember as a kid I would dress up as an angel and walk down the aisle, singing “Jesus Loves Me” as I entered heaven on stage. I didn't understand then just how important the show was.
It's not that I was unsatisfied with the part of Jesus. I was scared to play Jesus. I was overweight and beginning to bald so I didn't feel like I looked the part of Jesus. I also struggled with feeling inadequate to act as Jesus. Obviously, I'm not perfect but I just felt like I was far too flawed to even represent Jesus in a show in my church. That was over 4 years ago.
If I counted correctly, this past weekend's shows made shows number 10 and 11 and I have played Jesus in all of them. Playing the part of Jesus has been a blessing for me. It has allowed me the opportunity to travel to other churches to sing has given me the opportunity to meet many new people. I can't even tell you how many times I have been in public and someone will walk up and say “Hey! You're Jesus!” It took me a while to get used to that.
The devil really fought me on these past two shows. He attacked me mentally, physically and spiritually. The couple of weeks leading up to the play, my anxiety got worse and worse. I was stressing about the smallest things. I found it hard to get myself out of bed in the morning and I was letting my responsibilities slide. I felt like my depression was trying to swallow me, but I was determined to not let it. My health got worse and I began feeling bogged down. My mental and physical changes led to me not being able to pay full attention in church because I was so tired and unfocused. While the devil tried, he did not succeed. You see, I was excited that the devil was fighting me. Sounds weird, right? Yeah, but I knew that if the devil was fighting me so hard, that something awesome was coming! And it did!
On Friday night we had a full house – the pews were full. The show went better than I had expected and when it came time for the altar call, 5 people prayed for salvation. Three of the five people were my clients from work. On Sunday night, I got to the church an hour before the show started, and there were already people coming in for the show. It didn't take long for the pews to fill up and we were sitting out chairs. When it was time to start the show, the pews were completely full and there were chairs down the sides of the aisles. The show went great and when it came time for the altar call, at least 8 people were saved. I say at least because I kind of lost track. We had an awesome service Sunday night that was truly anointed.
Just remember, God can use any of us if we are willing and obedient. Also remember, if the devil is fighting you, he is trying to hinder you from receiving a blessing that is on its way. Keep on doing what is right. Did you come to the show? Comment down below what you thought of it! I would love to hear your feedback!
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